Oi, Oi!! We’re back at New Year! How fast did 2016 go man?! and how shite was it?! haha. Again, this year I am going to basically write up my 2016 and also include my Diary entries! Seemed to work well last year, so let’s give it a go again.
My completed New Year’s Resolutions are: …oh, well I didn’t actually complete any at all this year…… moving swiftly on………….
JANUARY:
Turns out I celebrated New Year with Jack Davies, we drank lot’s of Red Wine and watches the Jools Holland show… my darling Paul Weller was performing, so had to catch that!
Me and Dad did our New Yearly trip to Bournemouth – I go every year at this time, just to get my everyday make up stuff in the sales 😉 Saw a little bit of the lovely Callum Woodford on the Christmas stage. I also took my Dad to Sprinkles, and made him walk there… he nearly died! Haha!
On the 3rd January I wrote that I am fed up of being bored and lonely and said “I want to do everything I possibly can! If I get asked on holiday, I’ll go. If I’m asked on a date I’ll go on it. I need to explore more and become more me!” << I can confirm, I DID do all this, this year 😀
This month was also the start of where I decided I just can’t be friends with certain people, even if I have known them since school. No one needs selfish people in their lives.
I joined the Management Committee at the New Milton Memorial Centre! Woo! They trust me with important stuff!!
This part if rather freaky… 10th Jan “makes you think doesn’t it. When someone like Lemmy dies. Look at what we have lost – this world – us muso’s – we need people like Lemmy. Gosh it’s just so so sad” —- 11th Jan “I should not have to be writing this at all – it is more than a devastating shock. David Bowie has died at the age of 69 after battling cancer for 18 months”. It upsets me still, even reading that back! I wrote quite a few pages on the legend. I can remember that day like it was yesterday, I spent the whole day crying uncontrollably in sheer disbelief. I have so many memories related to Bowie from singing his songs, singing hero’s with my Dad, a ‘boyfriend’ of mine gave me a cuddle in his car while we watched ‘Dancing in the Street’, my teachers at school; one was a HUGE Bowie fan etc etc… it was like losing a best friend.
The very next day I got the Aladdinsane lightning bolt tattooed on my right rib cage.
Then a few days after that my lovely Sophie came over and we made Bowie biscuits – had to have the bestie over to help with the mourning process.
Then something even worse happened the day after that!! I found out the guy I was whole-heartedly in love with was seeing someone else. I drank a bottle of prosecco and went straight to Sophie’s in a big snotty mess. In the space of 7 days I lost two of the most special people in my life, and I can clearly state that this was the start of my depression and break down.
On a better note, the awesome band Voodoo Vegas invited me to their Mr.Kyps show with The Guns ‘n’ Roses Experience – I got on the guestlist with my Dad! Was well chuffed! I love their music!
FEBRUARY:
I got a job at a cafe in Brockenhurst.
13th February was the night of my 3rd Rock Night!!! I had The Smokin’ Prophets, Daisy Chains, Pirates of Panama and The Black Bullets on the line up. It wasn’t our best evening admittedly, but the bands were spot on, I can’t fault their performances at all. I love putting on my Rock Nights and finding new awesome local bands, it’s exciting and different for the area I live in. Try my best even if sometimes it doesn’t quite work. Mattington came down from Dorchester and brought Luke along, was nice to have some friendly support. Of course Soph was there… she comes to all my Rock Nights!! I try my hardest to make friends with the bands so that they feel as if they are at home. I like to make sure they are okay and relaxed/comfortable and have a really good night. If they don’t I feel kinda bad personally, like it’s my fault. Lot’s of bands that play look for me in the crowd and ask if they can play a few more songs, or they give me shout out etc. It’s really sweet, I like having that sort of bond with bands, I think it makes us a little different and hopefully a more relaxed environment to watch a gig in.
The day after (Valentines Day) I went to see The Bowie Experience at Mr.Kyps with Dad to pay my respects and sort of ‘let go’. Was very emotional!
I went to see the Rocky Horror Show at the Mayflower Southampton with Dad. We went for a Sprinkles before hand, and I had a slight wardrobe malfunction in the toilets – I was dressed as a transvestite you see!!
Now, this is where things start changing! This is an interesting piece of documentation.
27th Feb “went to see Saints of Sin at the Winchester last night with Luke, Val and Hayley. They were supporting a band from Barcelona called ‘Stop! Stop!’. That NIGHT was a turning point in my life… what followed was a meltdown, but significance is the fact… I saw Stop Stop. The only reason I was at that gig, was because I was bored and still not over my crappy ‘boyfriend’. I was changing jobs, struggling with home life, felt I had no friends… I was really struggling with just life, so that spontaneous night out, you’ll see later on in the blog… actually changed my life.
MARCH:
2nd March “I made an emergency doctors appointment last night, as my suicide attempt didn’t work. I got scared. Had a massive meltdown this morning – now I’m on Fluoxetine.” I tried strangling myself. I had my first day at my new job and I HATED IT. I was feeling low enough as it was with all the other crap in my life that had been going on since Nov ’16, then i just had bad news after bad news, then I was treated like shit in this new job and it got too much. The only thing I clearly remember from that day was hearing “join the party, come out of your shell“, and that was what got me through that day… even in the ‘end’. The significance is ^^ they are Stop, Stop lyrics. 4 days later… as if they were trying to tell me something.
10th March “Stop Stop! are also my favourite band! I’m really adoring them right now. I’ve found them on Spotify and have listened to all their songs 🙂 my favourite is ‘With You’. I also got to go back the Memorial Centre and they gave me more work to do… thank god! No more kitchen for me.
Saw Saints of Sin play at the Rydal! My Dad came to this one, and was drunk before hand which was quite a laugh – he didn’t have his grumpy pants on for once.
19th March “today has literally been the best day ever! the frontman of my favourite band ‘Stop Stop!’ added me on Facebook and messaged me! – like oh my days, I must be dreaming! I feel so happy I could burst like a pimple, or take off from the ground and fly! I’m appreciated/valued by someone who is pretty much saving my life everyday! How incredible is that? A piece of my poorly heart has been fixed! ❤ “. Jacob was my idol at this point in time, still is really. He doesn’t know this, but that messaged he sent me… I was literally in tears for the rest of the night, but tears of happiness. I was so so happy!! Was the first bit of happiness I had felt in a long time.
29th March – My fucking 20th Birthday bitches! I went to Southampton with Sophie, and we met up with Jayke, had a mooch around and had a Sprinkles! Nice a chilled out day.
APRIL:
The month of Rock Night 4! – which was also my 20th Bday Party (kinda). We had a hiccup with the sound and lighting – I some how managed to pull it out the bag last min, the last second on the deadline as well! Some help from Josh Rose and others of course.
9th April was the big day and it went “exceptionally well”. Only Sophie, Mattington and Tyler turned up for my bday but the bands and atmosphere made up for it by billions. The audience was a lot bigger… our biggest audience for a rock night so far. My Mum actually came to this night and volunteered to help out on Front of House. Oh the line up was, Lip Service, Our Propaganda, Freeway Mad and Saints of Sin. Freeway Mad were AMAZING!! I wrote down “I got him mango and strawberry tea, cos he looked like that kinda guy”, that guy is the dude that is Jack Denton! I also had a pretty great head-banging session with George Twydell – what a lovely bunch of dudes I got for my birthday, awesome musicians and really genuine people. Really made the night brilliant. Freeway Mad also got me up on stage to sing Happy Birthday at me, and Saints of Sin dedicated ‘Devil you need’ to me. For a rock night, the evening was so relaxed!
Next up was Mattington’s 20th!!! Me and Luke went up to stay with him. Me and Mat didn’t sleep AT ALL due to Luke’s impressing snoring skills, plus we were sleeping the wrong sides of the air bed…. what a night that one was!! I added at the end of that diary entry “super proud of myself – thanks to my gorgeous ‘Stop, Stop!’ X” <<< No idea!! but I think it was cos I got my confidence back…… like I actually left the house and socialised with strangers.
20th April – Met up with Mr.Jayden! Went to get my industrial/scaffold piercing done with Dan. Woo! I got a piercing I’ve wanted for years………… bloody bitch to heal!
29th April, Western Sand were playing at the Rydal. I went with my Dad… wasn’t in the best of moods, but I do like Western Sand so wanted to see them. Then who bloody walks in… oh yes, that crappy ‘boyfriend’!!! I didn’t know whether to hug him or knock him out. He never comes to New Milton, even when asked, let alone on his own accord. Dad sort of gave us space, but kept an eye on me, he tapped me on the shoulder and said “I’m over there if anything goes bad okay?! I’m keeping an eye on him”. Ended up getting a lift home from him (not Dad), where he fell asleep on me -_-
MAY:
5th May “I have some exciting news! I’ve booked my favourite band ‘Stop,Stop!’ and Saints of Sin for my 21st Birthday!! Would make my life having ‘Stop Stop’ play my 21st!!” << lucky girl ain’t I – I am so so so excited for this, and have been planning everything since that day so it’s gonna be big!!
I went out to the beach with the crappy ‘boyfriend’. Was a nice day, so Highcliffe beach seemed app-ted for some reminiscing.
I had a spontaneous weekend on the 15th! Woo! i met up with Mica on the Saturday, we went to Bournemouth, then I headed to Mattington’s in Dorchester for a sleepover before going back home in the morning, then to Christchurch to hang out with the crappy ‘boyfriend’, then back home to hang out with Sophie! WOO!
Later on in May, Mattington visited Boscombe/Bournemouth for the day, where we chilled in a hairdressers and I put Pirates of Panama on the TV.
28th May – ALADDINSANE! Was my first time working with a Tribute Band. Was so much fun, and I finally got to meet Paul Henderson, who I’ve known since I was about 15. They invited me on stage to dance to ‘Rebel Rebel’ at the end.
JUNE:
This month is a big one – so go get a cup of tea and a biscuit!
1st June me and Dad went up to Chelsea to visit the Rolling Stones Exhibitionism at the Saatchi Gallery. WAS INCREDIBLE!! I love the Rolling Stones more than life – they are my life – my life is dedicated to them ❤ to go and see a gallery filled with history, clothes… you name it – I was like a kid in a candy store. Was lovely to go with Dad, we both see the Stones in different ways. I feel I know them personally and know a lot about the production etc, where as Dad is the instrument guy, so we learnt from each other. Was so cool to remix some of their tunes too.
A week later I got to meet up with the crappy ‘boyfriend’ in Bournemouth.
12th June – I had a bit of a relapse with my mental health. “I wanted to die more than anything and I had to fight myself to keep myself alive – that is so fucking exhausting!”. It is really hard work fighting yourself on a life threatening situation… it’s one of the hardest things I have to do.
Stop Stop’s frontman Jacob also lend-ed me the hand of support “then you have another reason to keep going, my sweaty smelly hug after a gig”.
I later in the month got my hair dyed red and black, to kind of match the Stop Stop frontman (Jacob) – I’ve always wanted that, but that was the extra push I needed to go for it. I also decided I wanted to start travelling places… starting small, then building up to big things!
Saints of Sin played an acoustic set as part of Bournemouth’s food festival, I went with Mica!
Oh oh… We left the EU – well done England (I voted remain btw)!!
I got my 4th tattoo!!… because…………………….. 24th June, Stop Stop were back at the Winchester in Bournemouth and I got Jacob to sign the band name on my arm, so I could get it tattooed the next day ❤
That night I somehow managed to get stalked by an American on my way up to meet Sophie in Boscombe, before going to the show – this always happens to me on trains. I was soo fucking nervous to meet Jacob in person – the dude I had been looking up to as an idol of mine through a really difficult part of my life… I was shitting myself I wont lie. I was terrified he wouldn’t like me, or wouldn’t notice/talk to me… and I was just scared; but when he saw me he gave me the biggest hug and kiss ever and I calmed down a bit… whenever he saw me he gave me a hug which was so comforting, and he kept asking if I was okay which was sweet. I also met Mr.Dee Dee at this gig – legend!!! and Jon whom i am now great pals with. Jacob also made me promise that I would stay strong for him — well hopefully I am keeping that promise. Getting home was a bit of a disaster – ended up having to hang out with the band for a few hours afterwards as Val’s car got a puncture – oh this mischief we get up to us girls!! “honestly 3 of the most amazing blokes I have ever met. This could be the start of some awesome experiences” << too damn right Jodie!
JULY:
So, I’ve written for the first of July, Saints of Sin where playing the Christchurch Music Festival. I went with Val and Hayley of course, and she brought her son along, which I have written down as it being his first gig? Pretty awesome if so!
On the 9th July it was the day of the Southampton Tattoo Festival. I went with Dad on the Harley – Saints of Sin, Smokin’ Prophets (Now The Liabilities) and Our Propaganda were playing… so that plus tattoos was a big reason to go. Deffo’s recommend to everyone.. if it’s on next year… frickin’ go!! It’s awesome!!
Few weeks later I got to see the ‘boyfriend’ again, I’ve written that was had a ‘discussion’ which I thought was more of an argument… sounds about right! Apart from that, we had a real great night apparently haha… and we talked about ‘Stop Stop’ a lot.
A few days later, I got to practice some of my journalism skills and ended up getting asked out by a wrestler…………….. I didn’t go for it. I’m more of a rocker than wrestler kinda girl. Sorry fellas.
Oh.. apparently I saw Saints of Sin TWICE in one week! Once at Poole Quay and the other time at the Milford Music Festival. I’ve written “it’s gotten to the point them so much they have become so predictable BUT the atmosphere can really change how much I enjoy the show” << Still true. oh P.S “Me and Mat are planning our Cheltenham trip”.
I went to see my Nan (Gibson) in Didcot and she took us to The Boar’s Head in Ardington? Appt she seemed more accepting of me, but is still disappointed in my career choice. On a better note though I wrote “everything is booked for Cheltenham on the 27th Aug”.
Then I took my little Sophie to see Saints of Sin and Our Propaganda at The Talking Heads (co-incidentally, I think this was where she met her boyfriend… you’re welcome Soph!). Aah yes, that evening I met a ‘Stop Stop’ fan who goes by the name of Little Lainey aka Elaine! and she invited me to her bday on the 9th Dec.
31st July —— one year since I met the prick 😉
AUGUST:
1st Aug – My old primary school buddy David came to visit for the day. It was crappy weather but I took him to a cafe in Barton which was pretty nice. I also booked the legendary Stephen Loader to do the sound for my birthday concert – WOO!!
Ah yes, 2nd Aug, a year since our first date… which led no where haha! I still wanted to meet on the exact date though… you know… cos I’m a girl, and I’m cheesy like that. We went and played ‘rock ‘n’ roll bingo’, we lost both times. Oh I wrote he was actually nice to me – get in there!!!!
It was off the the Rydal to see Saints of Sin with Val and Hayley again. We arrived 2 hours early – FUCK YEA! Oh yea, I ended up having to count sexual positions. That was interesting. The next day, I had a spontaneous sleepover at little Sophie’s house.
On a Tuesday evening… I got absolutely hammered on too much wine at work after our AGM meeting.
On the 23rd I took little Sophie to see The Rocky Horror show at the Pavillion in Bournemouth. She actually really enjoyed it! I thought she would 😉 I slept over, and ended up waking up at 4am as some pillock was shouting “JOHNNY” for an hour down the street -_-
25th I was back seeing the Rocky Horror show with Steve Loader – LEGEND.
Okay now be prepared…. 27th Aug – Me and Mattington travelled to Cheltenham to see my amazing Stop Stop boys. It took us 5 hours, but we were buzzing for it. It’s the best thing I think I have ever done actually?! The boys were on fire, the atmosphere was amazing, just being away from home felt like a weight lifted off my shoulders. It was absolutely fantastic! I’d do it all over again in a heartbeat.
SEPTEMBER:
2nd Sept and I was off to see Stop Stop again. This time at the Lounge in Holloway, London. I went with the lovely Jon – who got lost a lot trying to pick me up and drop me home. Adds the fun bud! I bought myself some black bungaree’s to look like Jacob… went down pretty well 😉
Me and Mica hanged out on the 13th – I wrote “can feel my depression slowly seeping back in”.
Ah yes, I received the best birthday present in the world. I’m getting the venue for free, for all the hard work I’ve put in 😀
Had a spontaneous trip to Southampton to catch up with Jayke. Was nice to just wonder round and chill really.
I took my Dad to see ‘Havana Moon’ at the ABC in Bournemouth. He gets taken to see much Stone stuff haha. For that concert (Cuba) they had an audience of 1.2 million…. just let you take that one in……………. and breeeeaathheeee…..
OCTOBER:
1st Oct was Stop Stop’s album launch for their Barceloningham album at the Slade Rooms in Wolverhampton. Was epic! Booked myself a hotel with Little Lainey and her partner Mark; we travelled up to Birmingham with Nina. Met so many awesome people, as well as getting to see lots of people I already knew and were friends with. Such a relaxing atmosphere for the kind of music they play.
When I came back I went for breakfast with Val & then I got a cold 😦 so I was ill for a week or so.
Western Sand played the Rydal, which I dragged my Dad along to.
I went out with the ‘boyfriend’ and we played a pub-quiz, which we absolutely sucked at! I can’t even make it up. Damn, we were bad! But it was pretty funny haha.
The next day I went to see the legendary Arrows frontman Mr.Alan Merrill! I have known Alan since I was around 14 – so a long time! He actually dragged me up on stage to sing ‘I Love Rock ‘n’ Roll’ with him which was absolutely awesome! Thank you so much Alan!
Then two days later I was doing the same with Rollin’ Stoned at Mr.Kyps. I sang ‘Loving Cup’ a personal fave! Oh my god, that was literally my childhood dream, and it came true… Thank you so much Mick Jaguar for asking me up there!
A week later it was little Sophie’s turn to rock Mr.Kyps as she joined Saints of Sin! woo!!
And to finish of the month, Our Propaganda were at the Rydal and Val and Steve came along. Was a real lovely evening as well. The guys did an amazing cover of ‘Gimme Shelter’ and ‘Moonage Daydream’, yes mate!
NOVEMBER:
I treated myself to a new lipstick… a Jeffree Star lipstick to be exact – this sparked an on growing obsession. Goodbye money.
I dressed up as Jacob from Stop Stop for Halloween, woo baby!
Donald Trump became elected president of the United States of America…………ooookaaaaayyy then…………….
I got a new tattoo – Suede lyrics, down my spine. Inspired by one of their songs.
On the 18th I went up to London with a group of people to help film a video for Saints of Sin. There was lots and lots of jumping involved, and I definitely found new muscles in my legs that I didn’t know existed!
The next day I went to see the Sinners at Kyps again as they were supporting the Four Fighters. Was a pretty great evening. Thanks to the legendary Mr.Loader for the sound, for taking me there & for letting me borrow your coat.
DECEMBER:
I was put in charge of the Christmas decorations at the hall this year! That was quite fun actually, 4 tree’s to decorate…. can’t say I’m as excited to take them down.
I also went with my lovely friend Val to get her first ever tattoo done. Of course the lovely Craig at Black Heart – she already wants more!!
9th Dec was the lovely Little Lainey’s Birthday party in Gosport with two awesome Spanish bands, Jolly Joker & Stop Stop. What a legend Lainey is, how she does it I don’t know, but she is one very epic little lady. Was lovely to catch up with my Stop Stop boys also, even though I was already intoxicated with vodka before I even got there 😉
The day after (10th) I headed to Swindon to see both bands again, with the added bonus of Saints of Sin. I stayed in Salisbury with Sarah and James after. Was great to catch up with the Birmingham mofos. I had quite a bit of an anxiety attack whilst in Swindon, so missed Stop Stop’s set unfortunately.
The 16th was the lovely Natalie’s 30th Bday party. She had Saints of Sin play of course. Was nice to meet new people such as Tara 🙂 I wrote “I love how the sinners know deeply that Stop Stop are my fave band in the world, but they don’t make snide comments about it or put any hate or jealousy towards me for it” << True! Some bands do get really touchy if they see I’m at more of other bands gigs, I mean I don’t DO favouritism… only in the Stop Stop case, and it’s not to see other bands be like “doesn’t matter who she likes…”, it’s really off putting when you feel like you have to choose!
23rd, had a bit of a Dad and daughter day in Southampton, we went to Sprinkles and GBK’s, before seeing Saints of Sin at their Christmas party at the Joiners. Apologies for my very anti-social Dad… he was soo tired!
24th Christmas Eve – Rick Parfitt of Statues Quo sadly passed away. I did cry a little when I heard the news actually. He was the first rockstar I wanted to marry. Also Status Quo were the first band I ever saw live (write that down… might be useful one day 😉 ).
Christmas Day – George Michael of Wham! sadly passed away. Damn 2016. Christmas was actually kinda nice these year, so I can’t complain. Got some Iron Fist boots & Jeffree Star lipsticks from santa.
Boxing day was spent with family in Farnham. Yes, family!! I was re-invited, and I’m actually glad now as I have re-kindled a small portion of my family back, so I’m not so alone anymore. You see, my family don’t really like me, and I was told that I’d find it very tense with some of the girl cousins… I don’t know why?!! They didn’t even bother speaking to me though, so that’s alright. I drank far too much wine and blacked out on the way home, laid on my bed for 4 hours being throwing up….. FUUUCK YEA! The family I’ve rebonded with turn out to be super awesome, and I’m gonna try and see more of them, hopefully before my party would be nice. Be good to show them round Bournemouth.
28th I wrote that my ‘Stop Stop’ hoodie arrived – mate, best hoodie ever! It’s so warm and so comfy…… go get one!
I think that’s about all folks!
BRING ON 2017!!!!!
Jodie ❤